by Nancy Henry. MuscleHead Press, 2003
There
are some things about which it is nearly impossible to be honest.
Honesty measures not only the accuracy of an account, but the speaker’s
attitude towards it; she must be free of sentimentality & other
kinds of evasion, without slipping into a clinical objectivity that
cannot feel what it describes. The hard-hitting, honest poems in
Nancy Henry’s HARD come of her experience working with severely
head-injured autistic teens at a rehabilitation center. Henry brings
to transfixing notice, the everyday atmosphere and wrenching dramas
of our willed ignorings. We blithely go about our distracted business-until
the searing moment of attentiveness batters consciousness and what
we have held back out of denial and disinterest gains entry. No
Thumperism, the emotional pit and philosophy so many in the helping
professions fall into-that if you can’t say anything hopeful, say
it anyway out of a well meant warmth and sincerity of feeling, an
attitude I believe grows out of stupidity and make one want to retort
with Adorno’s famous remark about the impossibility of poetry after
Auswitz. There are candidates for honest bad-mouthing, reaching
from one’s relatives to the alleged leaders of our world. When he
wrote
A
smooth forehead betokens
A hard heart. He who laughs
Has not yet heard
The terrible tidings
Brecht
was prescient, probably more than he even knew. In our bloodiest
of centuries, an estimated 187 million perished. In World War I,
the proportion of military to civilian casualties was ninety to
ten. Today for every ten military casualties there are on an average
ninety civilian deaths-atrocity become normative. And when might
it all end? It probably won’t. In the short term the best wisdom
may be pessimism. In the long term. optimism. And vice versa.
Even
were this not so, we find ourselves in an aleatory world where dangers
are irregular, inconstant in their times and seasons. Everything
is got by actions that may involve us in other and obnoxious consequences
in addition to those wanted and enjoyed. Unknown consequences flow
from the past and dog the present, the future even more unknown
and perilous; by that fact the present is ominous. Those so far
lucky enough to have escaped can feel like they’ve gotten away with/from
murder. So many things can, perhaps yet will, befall us. We are
all potential players in the local tragedies and black comedies
of our lesser worlds.
One
of those worlds-one enabled by nature’s haphazard distributions
of genes, further enabled by human cruelty is the subject Nancy
Henry’s Hard explores with skill and insight and reminds one of
the Objectivist Charles Reznikoff’s later poems, based as they are
on documentary evidence gathered from records, and presented in
a series of details, fragments cut away from their horror. No explanation
of the depicted events are offered , nor does she provide explicit
emotional or moral response to them: she leaves us alone with our
own silences. Seemingly flat, documentary, particularized, most
of the poems function like a mosaic of salient incidents:
Skateboard
King
lurching back from physical therapy
you are a bug that was crushed
dragging itself along
with what’s left.
Heroes
of the ordinary:
Here we have our own Comic Book Heroes:
The Boy Who Stuck to His Work
The Girl Who Remembers What Happened Yesterday
The Kid Who Tied His Shoes
"Is
it good to have hope?"
you ask,
I need you to repeat it twice,
the words tangled on your thick tongue. (EXTREME )
Henry
just tells what she sees, there’s little editorializing (the best
poems contain the least), the author simply avoids the temptation
to bleed her emotions onto the poem, let’s the brute images work
as an imagist poem might:
One
week all the boys
convince the night shift guys,
cool college men,
to shave their heads for them,
uncovering the scars.
Their bald scalps bloom
the hieroglyphic of disaster,
slick jagged runes
where hair will never grow.
They illustrate long days
a mother spent beside a bed
a father’s fierce hope
shattered and revived
expectations painfully remade,
some bloody night an EMT
is still trying to forget.
They rub one anther’s scalps
with hard knuckles, make
irreverent fun of every bony knob
and dent, I grow used to it at last,
stop dropping my eyes,
dare to read the story there,
pink on mahogany skin,
violet and gray on white. (NAKED)
A
place is made for the observer/poet to register her frustrations
and feelings of impotence. The difficulty is knowing when to stop
so that the poem does not distract itself and the poet’s tears are
kept from splashing the poem-an irresistible temptation, difficult
as managing everyday things as Henry pushes her charges into reality
You
know you cannot rescue them,
as you make them tie
their own shoes
though they cry
with frustration of tangled fingers,
backwards sight,
knots that keep dissolving into air.
You let them lurch from the kitchen with cereal
that will slosh to the floor
every time, let them mop
and swear,
and cry again.
here is no deliverer
but their own slow, marginal triumphs.
You
are only there
to keep the pretty lies away
to keep them strong
to keep their eyes trained
on what is possible.
even if it’s only
pain. (DAYSHIFT)
She
becomes, for a moment, the incredulous reader:
Under
the short brush cut
you can see the dent
where his father hit him
with a board.
>
You think I’m making this up.
You think I’m making this poem
more dramatic.
I’m not.
I sit with this boy every day.
We try to do his math.
We try counting money
And acknowledges the dark comedy
that can so often accompany the grotesque in human behavior:
The boy with the Harry Potter glasses-
plastic frames, no lenses
>
his mother, in Philadelphia
ten hours away from this place
where we teach her son how
to blend in with the world,
get a simple job someday
and not get pulverized by life. (ACT YOUR AGE)
And the horror and shock of what it must
be like working among these autistic beings. The poem RED-HOTS moves
from the opening:
I wonder where she got the candy
the small red flecks she’s raining
on the book that I am helping
her to read.
to a bloody (literally) horrific ending.
I was relieved coming upon images of light and color in her description
of Trevor
:
"smiling, gleaming teeth
opening a wide half-moon in his
sweet dark expresso face. (cut and paste)
The poems are not all dark and bone bare.
Look at the transformations Henry wrings out of a pencil in the
poem of that name:
Morning, it’s passed out with spelling papers
slick clean smooth yellow-orange, perfect planes
point clean as a fox tooth
perfect hatbox of pink eraser on the end.
By noon four strips of toothmarks
like rows of stippled corn
eraser gray and damp, chunk bitten off.
By one-thirty, snapped in two,
eraser gone, sharp metal tube
bitten to a point;
by three he’s standing on his bed
pencil in his fist, broken jagged edges
menacing like teeth
"anyone who comes near me gets stabbed!"
Follow the teeth images moving through the
lines. going from "clean as a fox tooth" to a "chunk bitten off
to "bitten to a point" and finally to "jagged edges menacing like
teeth." Then read DEMOSTHENES to see how the poet brings the Greek
orator’s world into her arithmetic class of autistic children, the
sage who put pebbles into his mouth to "cure" his stutter and these
hapless kids who must be kept "from eating things they find / upon
the ground / some things that could kill them."
Hard isn’t all about Henry’s wards. It speaks
also of "a thing that holds you / close to people you’d not chose
to know /in any other place than here, but here, you know /t way
they like their coffee, /when they’re on their last nerve"" (TRAUMA
BOND)
In PEOPLE WHO TAKE CARE the rewarding nature
of the work is described. It might have been all too easy for Henry
to sink into a kind of If I have made just one life better" Thumperish
sentamentalism. She doesn’t, stays real, knows what a shit (literally
at times) job her job is, how the people who take care of people
"get paid less than anybody/" are not worth much / " not respected
by other people / " who make more money / tell them what to do /
never get shit on their hands / never mop vomit or wipe tears /
don’t stand in danger"
and ends with
sometimes they fill a hollow / no one else
can fill / sometimes through the shit / and blood and tears / they
get to a beautiful place, somewhere / those clean and important
people / have never been."
When someone we love is dying, has a stroke,
when we have been there with them through it, when we have done
what we must, we know the truth of Henry’s final line in ICE, "It’s
all we can do."
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